Friday, September 29, 2006

Me Without All of You

Whenever I write something, I have the tendency to edit sentences in my head even before my fingers hit the keyboard. In the end, I come up with something really crappy, which I have to rewrite word per word. A lot of times, the "head-edited" versions sound smart but feel so dishonest, fake and stupid.


The same goes for me. At times, I feel the need to edit myself in order to fit in, in order to project myself as somebody "ideal." Before I began my MCP year, for example, I almost fell into the dangerous trap of pretense. I built walls around me and kept my distance. I may have been effective at that time, but I felt unhappy, sad and lonely.


It was only when I came to accept my imperfections and openly showed those to people that I realized how great it is to actually be respected, accepted and liked for who I am -- quirky habits and all. I realized that showing my "autobiographical draft" is much easier and even better than my "published self." In the process I re-learned to like myself and laugh at my imperfections. :)


Today, I give homage to no one but to everyone who has learned to appreciate me for who I am. You have made things a lot easier for me. :) Cheers!


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Happy birthday to Annika. And thanks to Aiste for the input. :)

Posted by Erica Cleofe at 11:19

6 comments:

  1. Blogger Aine on September 29, 2006 12:16 PM

    and appreciate you we do my dear :) give annika a birthday hug for me! xx

  2. Blogger Erica Cleofe on September 29, 2006 5:43 PM

    I will! :)

    That was a quick reply. :) Thanks for it!

    Cheers,
    Erica

  3. Blogger Karin on September 29, 2006 7:25 PM

    Wow, that was such an amazing why of putting thoughts that I have into words. Thanks for that! I definitely edit myself - and my blog - too much before I/it am/is published...

  4. Blogger Benru on September 30, 2006 7:59 PM

    Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

  5. Blogger Erica Cleofe on September 30, 2006 8:50 PM

    Hey Karin,

    Thank you for passing by. I appreciate you like my words. We can talk more on MSN!

    Doc Ben,

    Thanks for the visit. I will be keeping up to date with you as well!

    Cheers,
    Erica

  6. Anonymous Anonymous on September 30, 2006 10:39 PM

    The way to go Erica!
    As I told you I really appreciate your style of writing, and I really admire that you have courage to tell people you like them and you remeber them.
    See you around some day! ;)

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