Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Alda Scmalda
As I rode home on the bus today, I had a sudden revelatory moment of belief and disbelief. I realized that I was living and unliving the dreams I have purposefully fixated on as a kid. Yes, I was living independently. Yes, I am in Europe. But I no, I don't have a glamorous life. And no, I am not in the middle of a rising career or peddling my business.
My life at the moment is what both dreams and reality are made of. I am neither unfortunate nor have I gotten all the things I used to dream so lucidly about. But I don't consider myself a failure. Rather, I consider myself a winner -- one who is still waiting to realize what the prize is for.
During days like this, when so many thoughts run through my overly-worked mind, I realize that as I grow up, my dreams also grow up with me. From simple though sometimes silly ambitions, I have webbed myself into complex yet fairly achievable personal visions.
How I have come to this point, I don't know. I do know that in every dream made, in every wish uttered and in every plan laid out, there are people in my life who seem to just patiently wait until I figure out the next step. One such person is my cousin Alda.
Alda and I share a lot of childhood memories. Both of us ventured into almost the same things -- swimming, ice skating, tennis lessons and drum lessons. Albeit, I almost failed in excelling in those things, Alda did not. She was more the sporty type while I was more the "I would rather bum at home type."
Alda and I were almost inseparable when I was 9. We went to do so many things together and played so many games together. It did help a lot that we were also neighbors!
As in any childhood friendships though, there was a need to also grow up separately and we did just that. But the separation, the physical distance, always seem to fade whenever we catch up and talk about stuff that I thought we would never talk about -- boys, relationships and families.
Alda is one of those people capable of listening to me. She is one of those patiently trying to understand what goes on in my head or in my heart. She is one of those who always seemed to have that blind faith that I can do anything I set my heart to do. Some people call that kind of support a family necessity, I call that loyalty.
Alda and I have always shared the same zest for achieving some level of business success. We even had our own company called AMELEC, which we had specially printed business cards for. :) It is a shame that we never did pursue any kind of business ventures, I am pretty sure if we did, we would both be 4x richer than what we are now. We are simply a good combination. :)
I am thankful that Alda is part of my life. I feel lucky that I have someone who is as supportive as she is with what I do and who I am, although 75% of the time, she has no idea what goes in my head. :)
I could only wish that a person so indescribably accepting as Alda will achieve whatever it is her heart has set out for. After all, she deserves it. :)
4 comments:
Just exactly how many cousins do you have???? Hahahaha :-D
Too many. :) Hmm maybe around 20ish? :)
LOL It's just that I have the impression that many posts are about cousins of yours :-) Actually, I have about 25-ish cousins myself, but they're all abroad and I hardly get to see them :-(
Erica,
Hold on to your dreams and live life to the fullest now. Eventually everything make sense.
Things I did at sweet sixteen are contributing to my ability to finally reach for the dreams I set at that time.
Life is good.
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