Monday, January 01, 2007
When Fear Takes Over
I was on cloud 9 the past few days after realizing what I wanted to do. However, as days passed, I have started to get caught by the usual mood killers - doubt, fear and insecurities.
Now, I feel paralyzed. I am afraid I will once again choose the safe choices because they are easier, more certain and less emotionally tasking. But then again, I know that choosing the road easily travelled is like making my soul suffer from a long and painful death.
Why am I programmed to be afraid? Better yet, what am I really afraid of? Is fear a good reason to stifle my potential as a human being? Am I doing myself justice by giving in to fear?
Obviously, the answer is no and yet, I focus on believing otherwise.
But now I am healing myself from that fear by openly admitting to you that yes, I am afraid of failing. I think that by being open about such insecurities and doubts, I am freeing myself from the pretenses. More importantly, by admitting this to you, I am releasing that evil, evil fear that wants to put me down.
From now on, fear will not be allowed to take over my soul. After all, my soul is too precious to be ruled by such balderdash.
2 comments:
Seldom do I fall silent in front of words such as your's. Great that you have reached one milestone on your path. At a young age you are already ahead of so many things and able to give so much inspiration to people through your thoughts. I admire that and it gives me the reason to still visit your blog.
Hi Andreas.
Thanks for the nice comments. I hope people really do get something from reading my blog. :)
Hugs,
Erica
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