Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Friend. Kaibigan. Ystava. Ami.
I have the insane need to blog today though I really do not know what to write about. This can only mean two things: (1) I have too many thoughts in my head that I cannot make sentences of them or (2) I have NO thoughts in my head and I cannot really make something out of nothing. At this point of the day, I would go for the second option. :) I just want to write without real intentions on why I should. :)
I guess I am writing because I realized that people do care about what is going on with my life. The overwhelming level of support that I received while sick was such a humbling experience. I could not have survived being sick in a foreign country without the consistent and overly generous support of my friends.
The only question I have now is: What have I done to deserve the love and care of so many people? To this question, the answers I will never know nor do I need to find out. I just confirmed that there are many good people out there. Those that choose to care are far more than those that choose to ignore and hurt you. I should really do my best to cultivate the friendships I have and not spend so much energy on forcing people who are not "worth it" to care for me.
It's funny that it took such a drastic event for me to truly realize this. But then again, I needed to re-learn this lesson at this point in time. Why? I don't know and again I don't really need to find out. Sometimes, there are no deeper reasons than the simple answers that already exist. :)
2 comments:
Hei ystis,
Thanks for the time in Finland. I felt like during those three evenings our friendship jumped to a whole new level. Though the last evening was just sad... I was thinking of having to go all the time. But it's good to be back here knowing that you're most likely gonna be back in F-land, when I come back.
Top 5! :)
-Tomi
you didnt do anything to deserve those friendships - just being yourself!
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