Monday, December 03, 2007
Time to Close Shop
I have spent the last one and a half years writing on this blog and I will spend the rest of my years not doing so.
This weekend, I have finally decided that it was time to close shop and to stop updating this blog. My reasons were not many but they were compelling. This blog ties me down to a past that I no longer want to live in. I want not only to move on but to grow up.
This weekend I felt that I have become a different person. Yet, people around me choose to see me as the person I once was. While that person is someone I love and understand, I would rather leave that person behind now and move on with a vengeance and much love.
I am a lone soldier. While there are people who care for and love me, people will never ever fully understand me. To be able to get me, one needs to step into my shoes -- a pair that is worn out yet durable and timeless. At a young age, I was already questioning my existence. I have always been different and have always thought in terms that were a bit more advanced for my peers and sometimes even for the times. I went through so much emotional lashes that no one has had the privilege on hearing the full story. I have also received so much blessings which I believe has kept me alive until now. And those blessings, I have also failed to mention or share.
Then again, that is the point of my finally putting a period in this long experience. I have chosen to share snippets of me and kept a big part of who I am. Yet, I have given so much about myself that I feel that some people have put me in imaginary boxes with boundaries that are impenetrable.
I have been happy to have shared a year and a half of my life with you. It has been my privilege that some of you found enjoyment in my musings and reflections. However, I need to grow up. I want to move on. I want to be me.
It is closing time. It has been a pleasure. Thank you for being with me.
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If you want to keep in touch, please email me through erica.cleofe@gmail.com. May God bless each and everyone of you.
